When is enough enough? When can you say you did everything you could, but it truly wasn't enough? My heart hurts for those that I can't quite understand, for the relationships that I can't mend, and for the ones that are far to broken to ever fix so you just try to use some superglue to hold it together.
To say the last year of my life has been a never ending roller coaster is an understatement! For the past year I've been a sick girl and every time I thought I had reached a valley on this coaster there was another hill to climb. In August of this year I was clicking to the very highest peak with both my sanity and my body. I saw what was over that hill and really thought the ride was over. However, the ride is easier, but certainly not over. While on this wild ride I had plenty of time to think....think of all the wrongs I had done or had been done to me. Think of all the things that were broken that I want to fix so badly, but then I thought what if it is not for me to fix. What if enough was enough? Maybe I needed to focus on me and my little family and not give so much of myself to things that don't deserve it.
Eric says I give to much of myself to people or situations that are not worthy. I say I never see anything as a lost cause. However, I think sometimes that gets me into trouble and I should just let some things pass. I'm working on letting go, but my heart hurts....everyday. I sit in times of joy and there is a little part of my heart that hurts for the broken!
To those of you that I have wronged I am sorry! For the broken things that can't seem to be fixed right now...I'm sorry! My heart hurts a little for you everyday and loves you everyday!
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